Something in me has moved me to tears all day long.
For once, I think today is probably the most saddest day in my life and no, it wasn't caused by someone's demise or a loss of a good friend.
I think my saddness has really got to do with my realisation that whenever we are totally honest with someone who lights up our lives, it comes with a price.
At times, the price that we pay as a result of being completely honest isn't really worth our act of honesty but then again I guess life has never been fair to anyone, so why should I be an exception?
To many of us, the person who is near and dear to us, one who means the world to us, is probably the one capable of hurting us the most, whether or not they realise their actions will result in us feeling the pain.
At this point in time, I really don't know if its worth pouring my heart out through my blog because I'm really hurt by the things that one person told me repeatedly today.
Funnily enough, I find that its really weird that I always stumble upon similar situations throughout my life - times when I go out of my way to understand someone and situations surrounding them, the many things that I do to help them lead a better life...always end up in a scenario where I'm criticised for not trying hard enough to understand them, not being there to help them and never doing my best to ensure they live comfortably.
Sad isn't it?
The way life always turns out for me has never been far from tear shedding and heart breaking.
